Damn...Finally

Finally i'm able to log into my acct. All this while, i was unable to blog cos i wasn't able to log into my acct. Finally i can let out my feelings. Phew...

So, where shall i start?

Was freaking upset yesterday, still upset now. Downed a bottle of cough syrup yesterday. I was so high that i couldn't wake up for work today. People at work thought that i was sick but my friends knew that i wasn't lah. Slept through lunch.

Didn't eat the whole day.I have been upset over the past few days. I try not to argue with her. But i'm the sort of person who let out everything when he's unhappy. Sorie dear i didn't mean to be such an ass.Then again, there's no use trying to make things work now.

I have the song Kenangan Terindah by Samsons on repeat. Freaking eyes are so watery i can't see clearly.

Kenangan Terindah

aku yang lemah tanpamu

aku yang rentan karena

cinta yang tlah hilang darimu

yang mampu menyanjungku

selama mata terbuka

sampai jantung tak berdetak

selama itu pun

aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

darimu, kutemukan hidupku

bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

bila yang tertulis untukku

adalah yang terbaik untukmu

kan kujadikan kau kenangan

yang terindah dalam hidupku

namun takkan mudah bagiku

meninggalkan jejak hidupku

yang telah terukir abadi

sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Somewhere, sometime, i must have done sumthing wrong to deserve all this.

I'm tired frm all the arguements. If u want to know other reason why i leave hamaf is becoz he's controlling my life. Can't do this nor do that. I dun like. I tot i can tolerate u despite knowing how u are. To give us a chance bt i tired to argue with u everynite. maybe betul u ckp U give me a few mths b4 i leave u. As much as i want to prove u wrong n co further with u, i can't do it now when at the same time, i have to hndle the issue i'm having with my parents. Ican't take the stress anymore. i cry to slp thinking how pathertic my life is. I'm sorry bt maybe i, shld be single till i an handle a relationship

~her exact words

If i didn't care, would i try to calm u down whenever u fought with them.

Would i ever try to talk sense into u. Please lah. For goodness sake, THINK!

I hope she's happy now that she's rid of a problem.