Was trying to control myself, didn't want to call her or msg her. But the feelings were overwhelming. I know that it didn't matter to her if i called or not. God damn it why am i so worked out. I'm going crazy. Freaking eyes swollen. Whole body is shaking uncontrollably. Wat the hell is happening to me?!! The last time i felt like this was when i was 19. When i broke up with farina. I hope that this time won't be as bad as the last. Hopefully i won't do anything stupid. Why am i so freaking weak ?!!

I LOVE YOU ALOT!!!

Can't you understand me?!!